it's midnight now

it's midnight now

i dont have the mood to sleep

i'm tired but just no mood to sleep

on some music

end up i choose chao ge "ru xi"

and just keep repeat it

is a nice song

i like the melody

the feelings just suit my mood now

i'm not emo-ing~

i just wanna stare at the sky

a lot of songs remind me bout him

at least this songs can sometimes allow me to empty my mind

though i still thinking of him when i stare at the sky

my room's curtain is wide open...

can see the lights shine like stars from the 3rd floor here

hmm...

i enjoy watching stars but it's so difficult to see them in KL sky

but i enjoy looking at those tiny little lights from far too

everytime when i look at them

there are somekind of strong feelings runnning in my body

thru all my nerves

the sky is super dark now...

the building in front of me is completely lights off too

hmm...

feel wanna carry the music with me and go for a walk

but isnt it a crazy stuff to do now?

how i wish i'm on a hill now

and some1 lend me the shoulder to lean on

how i wish i can dissolve into the dark now

how i wish i can fly in the sky now

it's like a dream

the matching of us is
so dramatic
so unimaginable
so unpredictable
so miracle
it's like a dream
hope i will never wake up from this dream
2 years in the past
both of us are at the same place
never detect the existence of each other
dont even care who each other are
there are some other people in our eyes
there seems to be no link between 2 of us
it should be no link between us
but the 3 days trip in pangkor
actually tied us up with a red string
a tiny 1 connected both of us
until we dont even realise
who knows 2 years later
the red string pull us together
but why 2 years later??
maybe now it's the time
but why when we just started then we have to face such a big challenge?
maybe this can make our relationship become stronger

5 years...

gambateh^^

all i need is just a simple hug

When I say all these things
I’m not begging you to stay
I’m not trying to distract your plan
I’m not trying to ask you to change your mind
I’m not trying to do anything
Or …. Change anything
I just.... wanna say….
I just wanna say ...just that only
Y is it everytime I say tat the tone of your voice change??
Maybe I shouldn’t say anything
Ya..i wanna be strong
But it’s so not easy to be strong
I just cant be strong consistently
Can you pls just let me emo once a month??
Just once….??

ACCIDENT !!!

did something stupid and regretful yest

there have been so long i never feel so regret

how i wish the time can backward forward like a video

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accident!!

everything still in my brain

guilty guilty guilty

the guiltiness

y am i so children and naive??

if i never ask him to let me drive

then everything will be fine

i feel so bad

every1 is fine but i kind of injured my hand

the scar keep reminding me about yest

"the 1st accident in my life on his car"

SORRY~

I MUST BE STRONG!!!

haiz…
emo…
my mood is so unstable recently
is it hormone change?
Or something else??
I don’t know I have no idea..
12.33pm
I emo again..
Something pressing in my chest
Something pushing down my happy mood
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He’s going to oversea soon
We Cannot like now…
sms-ing each other everyday
Chat everyday
And deep in my heart I know
He will be busier and busier soon
Will he have time for me when we got there d?
How I wish I can meet him everyday
For the rest of time we have here
Infront of him
I must pretend
To be strong
So that he can go study peacefully
Is for his own good
I cannot be so selfish
Every morning when I wake up
The 1st thing fly into my mind is
“another day gone”
Can the time pls don’t fly so fast???

JUNE life --Episode 1

the cap day

emo-ing~

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amelia

liang~i know you are hungry but chopstick is not kind of food

how i wish i can eat tat..=p

huge!!!

gan

see wat she's doing...haha

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my "utensils" to study world music

black shirt day

vincent,liang, gan and tim

==lll 18 SX

cool man~

haha...alex...the alien

our world music lectural

bad girl day....

me and tong ee

the shoes~~

liang

timothy

timothy and me

i know i dont know how to hold chopstick

so..dont laugh!!!

looks so tired~

4 grand piano

the gala piano concerto

can you imagine 4 grand piano being played together??

ally and amelia

kit teng , phaik sim , tim

the crowd before concert start

the daddy and mummy
=p

amelia , liang and gan

THREATEN!!

just speak out for some1 here

well

also speak out for myself

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i always think myself very jealousy

i mean

i'm very easy to get jealous with some1

but!!!

not coz of you are better than me...

is coz of you closer to other ppl

this problem always occur coz of our guy friends

girls too but not so often

coz girls dont run towards a more handsome guy friend

and neglect their guy friends

is normal to jealous if you admire tat guy friend of yours

but

is tat normal if you are not actually admiring him

he's just your good friend??

but i do always feel the jealousy in me

i was like forcing myself to control

just think

if you are a girl

you are very close to your guy friends

always hang out together

share secret and so on

and so suddenly a new girl friend join in your gang

and she's pretty

all the guys get interested to her

always talk to her

any function also invite her

and forgotten you

last time they use to call you

but now

......

how do you feel??

is like...

"hey..we met each other longer

we has been such close friends for a long time

and you all just met her once

and now...you all stick to her

talk to her

like met her very long time d

and i'm lefted out so suddenly

just coz of the appearance of 1 girl"

feel tat the friendship is so weak

it cant even defeat the beauty

this makes us feel being threaten

and force us to conclude

guys make friend thru vision

once they met another more pretty girl

they go to her again

they dont even care bout her personality and attitude

her beauty blind the guys' eyes

untill 1 day

they are being fooled by the girl

then only they are aware of your good

by that time...

they already cut a big wound in our heart

they already hurt us

and yet they dont know

coz we never speak out

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